Mid Week Woes

I’m gaining some insight into the weight loss world by research and trial and error.

Now I know that the less I eat the more I lose!!!

And the more I move the more I lose!!!

Hardly rocket science, it’s like giving up smoking you have to want it badly enough and just do it. I remember many years ago when I did give up the dreaded tobacco it was my choice and although I’d tried to stop many times before the timing just had not been right. When the time was right BINGO I was a success.

Weight loss is a lot like that…the timing is crucial and the choice to do it is mine.

When you give up smoking you instantly become a non smoker, unfortunately when you decide to lose weight the results are not instantaneous. Each day you choose to eat less and move more can be painful and for me the option to quit seems like such a good idea because I’m not seeing results this far.

Maybe I’m having the Mid Week Woes……and I hope that on Friday the bathroom scales will tell me to keep trying.

In the mean time I’ll eat less calories, (around 1600) try not to have sugar and TRY not to snack between meals. Wish me luck.

Would you like me more if I was thin?...Diet Day 2

Actually day 2 was a complete disaster as was day 3.

It’s day 4 now and I’m coping a little better.

I am definitely one of those people who believe that if I was thinner my life would be better, I believe that people would look at me through different eyes; people would see ME not my total lack of self. That’s self control more than anything but lack of self is really what I’m feeling.

My main job now is to care for my elderly Mum. I don’t mind that so much but I’m gradually becoming more and more like her. I sit and sit and eat and eat. She doesn’t eat much but I really make up for that.

Mother can’t do much for herself now, I can do everything though as I’m still ‘young’ but am beginning to feel older as each second passes. Some days I feel as if I’m in my 80’s too. Sitting glued to the television, spreading at an accelerated rate and feeling miserable.

I am at home every day, technically I’m not retired although I can’t imagine ever being able to return to the work force. Who on earth would want to employ ME????

Must do something positive today, I’m thinking up a plan to somehow occupy myself around here so I’m available when needed but still achieving something worthwhile. Maybe I’ll even try to get into the garden and to be a little physical, do you think that will count as exercise? I will try to nick out for about ½ an hour and take the dog for a walk.

Let's Begin the Journey...Diet Day 1

This has gone on too long….I know that I desperately need to take control of my weight and my life.

Maybe blogging, keeping a diary AND …oh my goodness BEING ACCOUNTABLE might help me. I have been down many many different dieting roads in my time but I’m a blogging virgin so here goes.

WEIGHT         88 kilograms or 194 pounds

HEIGHT          178cm or 5 feet 10 inches

BMI                 27.8

I will be doing this anonymously for now, I’m so embarrassed and hate the way I look so please don’t judge. When I’m slimmer I may just come out and surprise you all.

So lets start this journey by saying that it’s not a Monday which I know is the traditional day to start a new regime but Friday 19^th August 2011. We are having guests for dinner and that will of course involve dessert but if I take things carefully during the day and have smaller portions with mega salad I’m hoping that no one will notice what I’m up to. Family are not ‘in the know’ either, they must be so sick of hearing me say “I’m dieting”

I’m NOT dieting this time, I know from bitter experience that it does not work for me…my plan is to eat 3 meals each day and to only snack on fruit…sounds easy!!!! Oh yes and only weigh myself once a week, drink lots of water and try to exercise at least 3 times a week…..now I do sound like a diet guru and I know I’ve heard it all before so you must have too.

Breakfast is always easy

Toast with Vegemite, this morning tried to halve the amount of butter I usually use…just enough to get the taste.

Tea with milk and a mandarin.

 

Morning busy, so don’t think about food until lunch, I prepare fish and vegetables for my Mother who generally has her main meal in the middle of the day. She eats like a bird now, a small canary. Me, I eat like a bird too, a Pelican and I am remembering the poem about that poor maligned bird…

“A wonderful bird is the Pelican, It’s beak can hold more than it’s belly can.”

Grilled cheese sandwich with strass for me and I add a cup of soup. Normally eating lunch is my cue to start to binge and spend the rest of the day picking at whatever I can lay my hands on. Maybe it’s the stodge…

Today may be different, I need to get myself organised for our visitors and prepare the meal for tonight which is interesting…. Avoiding food while focusing on a dinner! I’ll let you know what happens soon.